A mother's plea !

I wonder if your eyes were blue black or brown ,
I wonder if you would hate or love my childhood tiara crown.
I never got to know if you had a smile like mine ,
Oh I wish those merciless murderers had a spine .!

I wanted to see you once before they took you away,
I always wanted to love you every night and day,
They forgot that you would be a daughter mother and a wife,
They never thought for a second before taking away your life.!

You were my only possession that I held so high,
I don't wish to live anymore I just want to die,
But they kept me alive just to give them the kid of their choice,
When will you understand this crime and would raise your voice !?

She could have been an actor she could have been a teacher,
But you never understood this as maniacs were your preacher,
I never hated my life more than I do right now,
Not because I am a woman but because I survived that vow !

So many mothers saw their daughter dead ,
Is this why you men take those women to bed ?
You think that the murder was the best they could do ?
No letting us live was the curse we were awarded to !

I want you all to know that she was the only hope that I ever had,
Did she really deserve to die was she that bad ?
I could never forgive those infanticides for what they did to me,
Don't kill anymore kids that is my only plea !

A wish

I miss the place I once called my home ,
I am still struggling with this love syndrome ,
I cannot get past your beautiful smile ,
Hence I cried a river as huge as Nile,
I miss that warmth which I found in your arm ,
I feel like an outcast in this lonely farm ,
Thus I stand crying in this bewildered rain ,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

I crave for your calls and I miss those text,
You forgot me and somehow moved onto next,
I loved you hard enough to let you go ,
Was I this stupid for you to be so ?
I want you to hold my hand and to hug me tight ,
That would be enough to picture a future so bright ,
But reality struck me down with pain,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

You blame me for all your losses and you hate me the same ,
Is my love that filthy to run away from that blame ?
I laid down my heart at your feet ,
Despise my efforts I just lost the street ,
Without the address how will I ever reach back ,
There must be something that I presumably lack ,
I loved you hard and considered you my main,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

I cannot bring myself to murder the person that lies within ,
I cannot stop loving you who's nothing less than my own kin,
Keeping you happy was my only goal in life,
But this stupid heart wanted to see you as my wife ,
You are in love with someone else today ,
All I can wish for you is that your happiness stays abay ,
You are happy and that's enough for me to cross the lane ,
No I don't wish for you to be mine again .

The lost battle

Atrocious were my measures when it came to you ,
Love was the treasure I shared to few ,
Considering me an outcast you left me alone ,
That was the day when I learned a lesson so new .
My voice was terrible so was my dance ,
Having you beside me was never really a chance ,
Love was a bullet that struck down my heart ,
And thus the layers of sadness fell apart .
Misery was a treasure I kept for so long ,
I never really knew I would sing a song .
But the fire within me burned my soul ,
And thus I began to fill the huge hole .
Nostalgic were those lamp lights that burned so bright ,
Beautiful was the sky until I reached the heights .
My world seem to shatter slowly away ,
Burning so crimson every night and day .
While I loved her inside out she was fishing ,
My dreams about her ended at kissing ,
I won every damn battle I faced so far ,
But she was the only trophy in my cabinet that's missing !

The Lost Love

Meeting you was beyond my fate ,
To hold back it was really late !
Your smile captivated my heart ,
And so my layers fell apart .
I wonder if you felt the same ,
Coz as of today you hate my name .
You are the only cure that remains ,
Memories are the only part of you that sustains .
Water never rolled down these eye ,
How many times am I going to lie !
All that remains are the ashes of our past ,
And once we believed that it will forever last .
I wonder if you will feel the same ever again ?
You were a tune that never left my brain .
Somewhere I can still hear you inside ,
Though the song is over and so is our ride !
It's lost and it's gone for good I hope ,
Time replays the past and says nope !
You seem to visit me every morning at my bedside ,
There is nothing better than that sight .
All I wish is that it could be true for one last time ,
But even looking back at it now is a crime .
I evolved into someone different all together ,
Oh look at the clouds and this romantic weather .
I seem to miss you severely as time passes by my side ,
But I have accepted the fact to which I once denied .
My soul seems to crave for your presence ,
My heart is missing those nostalgic essence .
I met you the other day to clear some facts and doubt ,
But it seemed like there was a drought !
The lake once filled with the emotions was gone ,
That is how we met our dusk after the dawn .
You thought I came to tell you something that will last ,
But I came to make my future from my past .
I wanted to hug you and soak you like a foam ,
And to whisper in your ears that it's good to be home !
But things didn't turned out good that day ,
I cried a 1000 deaths just to say .
Your pain is relatively small as it may fade ,
But mine is piercing through like a blade !
Since my sufferings are given by your hands ,
I will cherish them until they disbands .
Deep down it pains in the dark ,
You changed someone who was kinda lark .
I know you from the rate of your breaths ,
Just how many times I ll have to overcome these deaths !
I wish to meet you years later one day in a pub ,
Maybe we ll talk about you in that club .
I ll tell you about my daughter with your name ,
And we ll laugh reliving the moments so same .
But all this is what we call a dream I think,
Your presence is felt everytime I blink .
I wish you accomplish all your goals ,
I wish one of them is blending our souls !
We met like a breeze of the fire ,
That burned in us with lovely desire .
Our partnership grew up like a pair of dove ,
It's special don't you think ? MY LOST LOVE !

Death Note

It's been a while since we last met ,

Thinking of which makes me upset !

I wonder if you are doing fine ?

Oh I wish I could still call you mine !

Yet I wait for your doubts to clear,

I know you don't want to overcome this fear .

Do you still remember our walks down the lane ?

I never imagined that loving you would end up in vain !

I longed for your soul and carved yours onto mine ,

Is this the end of our tale that once looked so divine !

I remember the pleasure you got when you looked at my smile ,

I was your pendulum and you were my dial !

How could you forget all this my love of the east ,

Don't you know I am starving for your presence at my feast .

Come and claim my heart again please !

I am unable to counter this heavy unease .

I am shocked to know that you love someone else today !

Maybe that's why you are keeping me far away .

Does he cares for you more than i ever did ? 

Or is it an agreement on which you bid .

Does he calms you enough for you to control your asthma ?

Or is it just a possible lie for you to overcome this dilemma ?

Can loving you be so painful and reliving altogether ?

But storms are nothing without a raining weather !

I love the way I know you won't return ,

But against all the logics and hopes I run !

I want to hate you for what I suffered ,

But not every story runs without being buffered !

You won't find that warmth in him no matter what !

Maybe this is the point to place the full stop .

I may not be the best for you to love me back ,

But once you said we all are Easter eggs with a crack !

You underestimated my love and my care ,

I ll keep loving you until greyish are my hair !

It's hard to tell you how I feel without you my soulful light,  (channa mereya - light of my soul)

I am ready to stand against my emotions and this fight !

You were the only hope for me to be ecstatic ,

But the hopes are dead so am I emphatic .

In the end I would love to quote this last quote ,

I love you and you define me , MY DEATH NOTE !